Holly Stark
If you shall love me, take me as I am beauty, elegance, and grace.
Your twisted tongue of words to change my hidden thoughts and make me who I’m not.
You’re soft spoken, it’s almost convincing, hearing the words of “I love you” but do you?
To love so much to want to change the one you love,
To take her and shape her into something she doesn’t want to be.
If I asked you to change for me, would you?
If I asked you to throw away your key that opened your door and come on my side, could you? Would you
take my words and listen with your mind and heart, or would you deny and say that you’re right?
Would you still love me if I changed down the road, years or months from now would the future still be
true?
I would still be with you.
You’re asking me to take myself and turn to a world that I’ve not learned that I’m scared and unprepared
for?
What if I listen to you and do things you want me to do, how long will I have to wait for both our
expectations to be followed through?
Would you still love me for who I am, still hold my hand and hold me when I’m sad.
Would everything be the same, would I have to change my name or play your pretend games?
We would no longer be the same and unfortunately, I’m scared to lose that,
I’m scared to lose everything we have and me,
I’m scared, for me to lose you and you to lose me.
I want to run, escape these everlasting worries of pain.
Yet, you don’t agree with me, you take me and slice,
Watch me scream, watch me cry, wishing all I would do is die.
Black and blue, blood and bones, showing through my clothes,
You take more swings and walk away, until I’m laying there.
Now can I ask you why you say you love me?
Is it just the thought, or the act of “perfect” but behind our curtains we aren’t?
If you shall love me why hurt, why bruise, why destroy your prized possession?
Once more I shall say…
If you shall love me, take me as I am, beauty, elegance and grace.
Your twisted tongue of words to change my hidden thoughts and make me who I’m not.
You’re soft spoken, it’s almost convincing, hearing the words of “I love you” but do you?
To love so much to want to change the one you love,
to take her and shape her into something she doesn’t want to be.
If I asked you to change for me, would you?
If I asked you to throw away your key that opened your door and come on my side, could you? Would you
take my words and listen with your mind and heart, or would you deny and say that you’re right?
Maybe what you do is to teach me, Your right, I’m wrong, I’m weak, you’re strong.
You’re the man, and I’m just the lady, you’re the one who’s in charge, who I must obey.
I’m trapped, you’ve blocked me from civilization, from humanity, isolated me from the world and my
dreams. But now I can see why, why you took me away and disciplined me with pain. You want me to be
happy, to change who I am, to make me better. So, you’re right you do love me, you do love me. You want
to protect me, keep me safe, hide me away so one else can have me. You blocked me from everyone
because all they did was hurt me too.